Here’s Where I’m At Now

Here’s Where I’m At Now

So, you may have noticed I stopped blogging consistently a while ago. Last month, I sat down and wrote down all the reasons I’d fallen out of love with blogging. I thought once I got all these negative feelings out the way, all the passion would come flooding back. And it did for a while! I stopped thinking about what would ‘work’ and started writing about things I felt like writing about.

I also took a break from Twitter

For a long time, I felt confined to the topics I was known for such as periods and sex etc. I still wrote about some of those things, but I also tried branching out into new areas as well. As I work in social media, I thought it would be fun to share some of my experiences and tips.

I wrote a piece on my personal experience about Instagram pods and why they were not for me. It hilariously attracted a very sad trio (who work at one of the most successful companies social media wise might I add), they reached out to tell me how wrong I was and one even went as far as calling me fake! I guess all the clients I’m doing great work for is all make believe, right? It’s fine to disagree obviously but I was talking about my personal experience, the whole thing was so bizarre!

Given everything I was feeling when I wrote that post about blogging, I just felt completely out of fucks to give. I even deleted Twitter for a while (that’s another post for another time), I just really could not be bothered with it anymore. Blogging just became a thing that really drained me. I think I probably wasn’t in a great frame of mind either, a break was definitely needed.

Why did I come back?

Given the industry I work in, I’ll never completely be able to leave the blogging world. I feel like I have to immerse myself in it a little bit as I do a bit of outreach. I am trying to be more mindful of how much I share online and how much time I spend online too. If I need a break, I can just not open Twitter instead of deleting it. I had posts scheduled whilst Twitter was deleted, I carried on writing here and there. I must admit my views plummeted a bit and I guess this was definitely one reason I returned. Twitter is also a good source of news as well and a way I read other blogs too. I missed talking to my mutuals on a daily basis, although I really apprecriate the people who took time out to message me elsewhere.

How do I feel about blogging now?

Honestly? I don’t feel cut out for it anymore! If I’m not feeling apathetic, I’m too sensitive or too easily pissed off. I cannot deal with people who go out of their way to try provoke me. Seeing very public subtweets about me is detrimental to my mental health. Seeing subtweets about my friends is equally shitty. I unfollowed so many people and it’s really helped. I’m not missing the content I want to see and there is less drama on my timeline. Bloggers on Twitter cannot seem to disagree with one another without getting nasty and I just don’t have the energy for it anymore.

I think given the topics I write about difference of opinions is to be expected. Despite what some people will have you believe, I do actually welcome debate. However, I won’t debate with people who screenshot my tweets and spent hours subtweeting after a conversation has ended. I’m not trying to play the victim here, I just cannot be bothered anymore. There’s people out here who tweet not so cryptic messages and try make shit jokes about you, it’s exhausting. People seem to think just because you’re open online, you’re expected to listen to and debate with everyone who disagrees. If I have disagreed with somebody in the past, I don’t see the point continuing to debate other topics with them. We can just disagree and move on, who has the time?

So, what next for Cattitude & Co?

I’m trying to get back into writing, I quite enjoy blogs that feel more like an online diary. But am I interesting enough? I don’t want to keep writing about how much I hate the Internet… I don’t think I’ll ever get back to the days where I posted three times a week and I’m not sure I want to. Most of my time is spent working on stuff for my clients and I really enjoy what I do. Sometimes I have up to 13 clients at a time, would you give up the little free time you have to blog when it feels like all you do is attract idiots who want to tear you down?

Having said that, I do actually miss running my blog. I love taking photos, I feel like I’ve really stepped up my game in that department. My interests are changing, I’m travelling more and I’m a bit more selective with the brands I work with now. In addition to that, I’ve also made some lifestyle changes that might be fun to blog about. I do enjoy documenting these things, so I guess Cattitude & Co is going to become more of an online diary instead. I’ve been given the opportunity to travel somewhere at the end of the month, which I’m excited to document.

I’m not entirely sure if I’m ready to stop talking about my vagina, feminism, and so on just yet. But for now, I guess my blog is about to get a whole lot more personal in a completely different way!

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10 Comments

  1. April 18, 2017 / 10:43 am

    I’m totally with you on not feeling blogging as much anymore. I’m not enjoying it like I used to, but I still enjoy some aspects of it so don’t want to give it up entirely. I so admire what you do, whilst you put up with so much shit. People really suck sometimes xo

  2. April 18, 2017 / 4:34 pm

    Hey–do me a favor. Take a few deep breaths, and then get your arms and wrap them around you in a big hug. I had a feeling something was up, but I think we’ll all get there if we haven’t already. Frankly, I think we all forget about quality over quantity, and though views are nice and such, the trolls aren’t. I can’t understand why someone has to just keep on going tearing someone down, and when the convo’s over, to just keep doing it. It makes no sense to me–seriously, do these people not have a life? Guess not…and no wonder.
    Anyhoo, keep it up–but on YOUR terms and in YOUR time. You may like it better with less pressure on yourself. I’ve never done Twitter myself–can barely keep up with Facebook most of the time and I’ve only got a few score friends on there…but I can’t do it every day or I get sidetracked too easily.

    Have fun and be good to yourself. Hugs.

  3. April 18, 2017 / 8:02 pm

    I just started the blogging scene, and I’m so sorry to hear that so much negativity has surrounded you. I am happy to hear that you are content in the way things are going for you:) I’m semi-new to your blog, but I honestly really love it. The honesty you give, is extremely rare, and one that I fully appreciate. I’m glad that your job is taking so much of your time, and you love what you do! I’m excited to see how the next chapter in your life goes. All the best. Sending you tons of positive vibes xxx

    Melina | www.ivefoundwaldo.com

  4. Ciara
    April 19, 2017 / 10:42 am

    It’s understandable that you felt like you needed to take a step back seems as your career’s so wrapped around blogging as well, but I can’t lie and say I haven’t missed your posts! I’m excited to see this new side to your blog, diary-like posts are what I live for so I’ll be all over that shit, good luck with everything!

    marblmoon.blogspot.co.uk

  5. April 19, 2017 / 2:30 pm

    I’m glad you’re in a better place now where you’re taking a step back from all the bullshit on Twitter…can’t believe people can be so petty and hurtful! Exciting to hear you’ll be blogging about new topics and lifestyle changes, hope this helps to invigorate your feelings about running your blog. Blogging is extremely demanding of one’s time and energy so I can totally understand why you wouldn’t feel like doing it, especially when you’ve had to deal with immaturity and spitefulness online. xx

  6. April 19, 2017 / 4:18 pm

    It’s so sad that people have to behave in such an immature and frankly pathetic way. Subtweets, nasty comments. What’s the point? If you have a difference of opinion, just agree to disagree and move on. I’m sorry you’ve had such a negative experience recently, I’ve been sort of following your updates on Fb/Twitter and seen some of what’s been happening. I’m glad you’re not abandoning blogging completely – and I’m very excited to see what’s next for Cattitude and Co!

  7. April 21, 2017 / 9:52 am

    Sorry you are not feeling it, but I can’t say I blame you. Blogging is a hard thing to keep doing and it has to be something you love constantly. The great thing about it though is you can do it how you want to. Don’t have time for people on twitter, stop listening, mute, block, whatever you like. Don’t want to write about something, don’t, Feel like doing more photos do it. Do what YOU want to do, that will give you the freedom you need and hopefully you will fall in love with it all over again in a new and different way. Looking forward to what you are planning next.

  8. Cara
    May 15, 2017 / 2:22 pm

    I relate to this so much, its really nice to feel I’m not the only one who feels this way.

  9. May 17, 2017 / 10:19 am

    I’m sending you a massive cyber hug! Don’t ever feel bad for taking breaks or not releasing content. I took a very long break off blogging and social media too- I was sick of the glossy blogging scene and the constant drama over Twitter between the same people. Nobody was able to have a mana have debate. I came back with brand new, totally different style of content for me and my views are shite but it’s what I want to write. So I have empathy for you. I love blog that are like diaries, I’d be so interested to what you have to say. But take your time. Your readers and followers will always support you more than a wonderbra ever will. X
    Katie
    Littlekaatie.com

  10. May 17, 2017 / 7:18 pm

    Sending you a huge hug and I’m excited to see what you write about over the next few months! I love online diary style blogs the best…raw and honest life. There’s a lot of negativity floating around the social media world right now and it’s really important to know when it’s time to have a little break and freshen things up, for you more than anyone else. You’re doing great and your genuine readers will enjoy whatever content you bring to Cattitude & Co 🙂
    Ellis x
    www.elliswoolley.co.uk

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