So, you may have noticed I stopped blogging consistently a while ago. Last month, I sat down and wrote down all the reasons I’d fallen out of love with blogging. I thought once I got all these negative feelings out the way, all the passion would come flooding back. And it did for a while! I stopped thinking about what would ‘work’ and started writing about things I felt like writing about.
I also took a break from Twitter
For a long time, I felt confined to the topics I was known for such as periods and sex etc. I still wrote about some of those things, but I also tried branching out into new areas as well. As I work in social media, I thought it would be fun to share some of my experiences and tips.
I wrote a piece on my personal experience about Instagram pods and why they were not for me. It hilariously attracted a very sad trio (who work at one of the most successful companies social media wise might I add), they reached out to tell me how wrong I was and one even went as far as calling me fake! I guess all the clients I’m doing great work for is all make believe, right? It’s fine to disagree obviously but I was talking about my personal experience, the whole thing was so bizarre!
Given everything I was feeling when I wrote that post about blogging, I just felt completely out of fucks to give. I even deleted Twitter for a while (that’s another post for another time), I just really could not be bothered with it anymore. Blogging just became a thing that really drained me. I think I probably wasn’t in a great frame of mind either, a break was definitely needed.
Why did I come back?
Given the industry I work in, I’ll never completely be able to leave the blogging world. I feel like I have to immerse myself in it a little bit as I do a bit of outreach. I am trying to be more mindful of how much I share online and how much time I spend online too. If I need a break, I can just not open Twitter instead of deleting it. I had posts scheduled whilst Twitter was deleted, I carried on writing here and there. I must admit my views plummeted a bit and I guess this was definitely one reason I returned. Twitter is also a good source of news as well and a way I read other blogs too. I missed talking to my mutuals on a daily basis, although I really apprecriate the people who took time out to message me elsewhere.
How do I feel about blogging now?
Honestly? I don’t feel cut out for it anymore! If I’m not feeling apathetic, I’m too sensitive or too easily pissed off. I cannot deal with people who go out of their way to try provoke me. Seeing very public subtweets about me is detrimental to my mental health. Seeing subtweets about my friends is equally shitty. I unfollowed so many people and it’s really helped. I’m not missing the content I want to see and there is less drama on my timeline. Bloggers on Twitter cannot seem to disagree with one another without getting nasty and I just don’t have the energy for it anymore.
I think given the topics I write about difference of opinions is to be expected. Despite what some people will have you believe, I do actually welcome debate. However, I won’t debate with people who screenshot my tweets and spent hours subtweeting after a conversation has ended. I’m not trying to play the victim here, I just cannot be bothered anymore. There’s people out here who tweet not so cryptic messages and try make shit jokes about you, it’s exhausting. People seem to think just because you’re open online, you’re expected to listen to and debate with everyone who disagrees. If I have disagreed with somebody in the past, I don’t see the point continuing to debate other topics with them. We can just disagree and move on, who has the time?
So, what next for Cattitude & Co?
I’m trying to get back into writing, I quite enjoy blogs that feel more like an online diary. But am I interesting enough? I don’t want to keep writing about how much I hate the Internet… I don’t think I’ll ever get back to the days where I posted three times a week and I’m not sure I want to. Most of my time is spent working on stuff for my clients and I really enjoy what I do. Sometimes I have up to 13 clients at a time, would you give up the little free time you have to blog when it feels like all you do is attract idiots who want to tear you down?
Having said that, I do actually miss running my blog. I love taking photos, I feel like I’ve really stepped up my game in that department. My interests are changing, I’m travelling more and I’m a bit more selective with the brands I work with now. In addition to that, I’ve also made some lifestyle changes that might be fun to blog about. I do enjoy documenting these things, so I guess Cattitude & Co is going to become more of an online diary instead. I’ve been given the opportunity to travel somewhere at the end of the month, which I’m excited to document.
I’m not entirely sure if I’m ready to stop talking about my vagina, feminism, and so on just yet. But for now, I guess my blog is about to get a whole lot more personal in a completely different way!